Something different...

It's getting pretty boring right? Hmmm.....what to say? Thats me!!!
No? I'm wrong? Okay, lets start on a better angle....

The wind whispers through the meadow
It calms the stormy thoughts within my head
I do not understand it
Yet, its calm and assuring
It lingers on so sweetly in the air

The silence of the trees
Brings me closer to the fact
That i'm surrounded by miles of nowhere
That itself, gives me pleasure to think
That i'm all alone without a single stare

I'm captivated by what's around me
Though it never struck a cord before
I gaze at a gentle blooming flower
And then i saw something soar

Higher and higher
It flew until
It could see the sun again
While i lay here
Waiting and waiting
When will i bloom? When?

The dust beneath my feet
Tell me a different story
They tell me i have wings
And can fly
But, i'm weighed down
By a dozen problems
Which i'll leave in the darkness
To soar high


That's it for today :)
I hope that if anyone reads this, they'll enjoy it and find the real meaning in it with their heart :)
Bye now :)

Oyasuminasai (Good night :))

It Starts...

What am I doing?? Where have I reached? Is it my fault?
Well, of course it is. It always is, isn't it?
I don't like to go on guilt trips but, I always have a part to play that i mess up....
Why? I wonder.......
Always doing what i hate, what i abhor beyond comprehension. I want to do something great!!
Yeah, me and my dreams.....
All will soon find a dead end, or has it already?
I move forward but i'm facing the wrong direction. If i perchance stay still, i will undoubtedly stay that way forever. It is this fear that is pushing me forward, bringing me closer to my cliff of death.
I stand here waiting for it all to end but, everything would be in vain if that happens.
I want to do something, anything. But, i'm worn down and i can't even find the will to do anything that gives me an ounce of pleasure. Why? because, i don't deserve it.